Disclaimer – what you are about to read is a bit gushy. It also has images of images of nude men and women. If you find either of these things not to your taste, I suggest you look away. Now.
Poor guy – this pose looked like agony!
This post wasn’t what i had planned. I was part of the way through writing an entry about life drawing. You may have noticed that I post my drawings on Facebook, Twitter, here, in fact anywhere I can. Life drawing is like an addiction for me. I bang on about it to anyone who will listen and really enjoy showing my images to others, hoping for some feedback, hoping my enthusiasm is infectious. I am lucky to have found a lovely little group that couldn’t be more local, has fantastic models and with a great bunch of people who attend. Hell, there’s even tea and coffee.
What do life models think about all that time?
I have taken a huge amount of pleasure from it since I rediscovered it last Autumn after a long absence. It has a borderline spiritual quality for me; I can lose myself in this completely non verbal activity where suddenly the most important decision I have to make is which drawing implement to use. All of my attention and focus goes into my endeavour to perfectly represent the gracious curves and shadows in front of me on paper. I am not drawing for any other reason than for the pure sake of it – I don’t make my pictures with the intent of selling them, unlike some of the other things I make, where that it definitely the intention.
I stared ‘creepily’ at this guy for ages
When Tuesday comes around I am thinking all day about what I want to achieve at life drawing tonight. Throughout the week, I scour my work, analysing what I find successful, in an attempt to improve and learn. What I produce is veryrepresentational. I don’t go in much for expressiveness, as much as I admire this in others’ work. What I want to achieve is accuracy, purity of line, a sort of visual truth about what I have seen, and I strive for precision in my work. One of the lads in the group commented how I was staring so intently at the model’s face one evening, that it was ‘kind of creepy’. It is a lot like a puzzle for me – I want to work it out and find a solution for how to transfer this 3D thing into two dimensions effectively.
And in that way, the subject is almost irrelevant! For me the experience of drawing the human figure is almost the same as the observational drawings of brick walls or bowls of pasta I used to do at University. I did them to see if I could work out how the noodles all fit in to the bowl together, or how this brick differed minutely to all the others. When I was at Uni I spent most of every day (when I wasn’t doing something more typically studenty and unrepeatable) drawing or otherwise creatively engaged.
Looking back on it, I mostly drew for the sake of it, with the misplaced sense that I was somehow getting further towards my creative goal just by the amount of sheets of paper I was covering, (look, look how hard I am working!) when I probably would have been better served to actually think a bit more and do a bit less. Pure self indulgence. It was easier for me than a lot of the other work I should have been getting on with. I just liked doing it. I didn’t really appreciate at the time what a massive luxury this was, but whilst I could definitely have worked harder, I know that what I did do was draw and draw prolifically – a loftful of sketchbooks being testament to that fact.
The night with the bandaged hand
When I emerged into the real world, life happened and just like that I didn’t really draw anymore. Returning to this almost forgotten part of myself has been incredibly rewarding. Now I have the children, the idea of having a couple of hours each week set aside to pursue something entirely selfish is indescribably wonderful.
I realise this all sounds quite intense, possibly quite pretentious. But I hope I have managed to communicate here just how I feel about my life drawing. I love doing it (have I mentioned that? 😀 ), but I also like to share it with others. I do this through a variety of social media channels, including more recently Instagram. What am I trying to say when I post a photo one of my drawings? I guess I am trying to share my passion for the act of creating this artwork with other people in the hope that they might find it interesting. I want to start a sort of dialogue with others. Maybe there’s an element of wanting to have my talent recognised? What I’m definitely not saying is ‘check out this girl’s amazing ass’.
So, when I found that I couldn’t log in to my Instagram account tonight it took me a good half an hour of reading the terms and conditions of use and some serious head scratching to work out why my account has been disabled. It is so far from my understanding of the world that anyone would consider my pictures ‘indecent’ that it really did not occur to me that sharing my work in this way would be anything other than acceptable.
I am truly sorry if I have caused any offence (and if you can’t find anything more distasteful on the internet then you are just not trying hard enough), but I have to say that anyone who finds an image of a nude drawing to be indecent is completely missing the point.
Thank you for reading and I welcome your comments.
HI
It’s lovely to see so many of your drawings together but sad that Instagram are behaving like Pope Pius IV and the Council of Trent. The marvel of the 21st century adopts the values of the 16th Century inquisition, How weird is that.
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Yes, completely threw me that – if I was a Kardashian posting selfies of my own ass, presumably that would be fine 😉
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Wonderful drawings! It is inspiring to see artists so passionate about life drawing, especially in age where people (such as at Facebook and Instagram) would have you believe the human form is inherently evil. Keep sharing your work. There are plenty of people who appreciate it and love it as you do.
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Oh, thanks Jeff. What a lovely comment.
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Your drawings are amazing! I can’t believe your Instagram account would be disabled, that’s ridiculous.
I did a life drawing course and one week arrived late (due to work) but when I walked in I discovered the boy I usually sat next to was the model. I had a sudden and terrifying thought that perhaps we were supposed to be taking it in turns! (We weren’t, thankfully).
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Hi Tara,thanks for visiting and for your comments. I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t go to life drawing if you had to take a turn as the model
A few months ago, our model couldn’t make it because of the bus strike so the guy who organises the group stepped in. He did a great job, but it does make you realise how easy the regular models make it look! Aside from the obvious issues with being naked in front of people, there is no way I would be able to stay still for that long! 🙂
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Nude? I had to scroll up and down twice to find which image was offensive- NONE! I miss Life Drawing, I especially love drawing Nude Females. You’ve motivated me to pick my pencil again and draw! Thanks! #Suzie81SpeaksPartyGuest
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Oh thank you for visiting 🙂 I’m slowly working my way through the list at Suzie’s party too… Lots of interesting new people to discover.
I really hope you can make that happen. Such a great thing to do. x
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I certainely will! I WILL!!
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It is amazing to me what people choose to judge about and find offensive. Honestly, if you aren’t comfortable with the human body…you’ve got issues! Your drawings are beautiful, intimate, and powerful.
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How lovely. Thanks for the comment 🙂
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Porn is not the same thing as expressing naked emotions. And the emotions came through quite well.
Hey, as I told a TSA lady who kept apologizing as she was patting me down, “I’ve been married 5 times hain’t nothin’ on my body that ain’t been touched.” I thought she was going to fall over laughing. 🙂
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True, 🙂 I was so enraged by this judgement, but at least I got inspired to write this post, which feels like it expresses my feelings on the subject of creativity, so every cloud and all that.
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It’s hard to know what is going to strike people as porn, politics or preaching.
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Damn, I wish I could draw like that. I’m surprised at the range of–I don’t know if it’s styles exactly, but effects, maybe?
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Hello, I love your blog – glad to have found you. Thanks for coming to read mine.
I am also surprised by the differences n what I produce from week to week, I have not yet settled on any one approach, but I think this is part of what I am enjoying so much about the process – what am I going to create during this session?
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Beautiful pieces.
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I love your drWings, it is one thing I love to do but I wish I was better at. Amazing that with the amount of stuff floating around that your drawings make it to indecent. Please!!
Thanks for linking up ☺️
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Keep working on it if you love it. I find it very rewarding, as you can see.
Yes, I was surprised too 🙂
Thanks for coming by
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I have to say that anyone who finds these drawings offensive must have spent their whole lives wrapped up in extra soft cotton wool with a side helping of cotton wool balls, finished off with a sprinkle of unicorn hair! They are not sexual or lewd in anyway. To the haters – seriously, get out more! To the artist – your drawings are brilliant!
Debbie
http://www.myrandommusings.blogspot.com
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Thanks very much for your comments. Very kind 🙂
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your drawings are absolutely amazing. i wish i had some of your talent #mummymondays xx Mummy2Monkeys xx
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Oh thanks a lot 🙂
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I love this post, the way you describe your love of drawing makes me wish I had something I was that passionate about in my life…everyone should. At least then I could stare creepily at people with a reason! How funny that someone thought you were and the way you describe solving a puzzle is fascinating. Bah as for the Instagram thing…you’re back on now aren’t you?…but so bizarre. Sooo many offensive things on the Internet…often just in the adverts at the bottom of blog posts…and this in NOT one of them!
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Thank you. I was quite proud of this post – I felt very motivated to write it and it was a cathartic experience! 🙂
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I so wasn’t expecting you to say that. Your art is stunning and you are incredibly talented. Allowing ourselves to draw is a gift that we should all do more often. You certainly should, you are very talented. I am staggered by Instagram #abitofeverything
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Thanks for the lovely comment – I think everyone should definitely explore drawing more often – it is incredibly absorbing 🙂 I’m sort of over it now (sort of) 😉 x
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None of your drawings are offensive. They are all tasteful and the rudey bits aren’t on show. I admire your talent. I’m rubbish at drawing. It’s great that you have found something that you love so much and can do every week! #abitofeverything
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Thank you – I wish I could go every week! I’m currently on a three-week hiatus as my husband keeps going to work on Tuesday evenings, the selfish bastard 😉 but I’ll be back soon… 🙂
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I was initially really surprised at your being suspended from Instagram, but the more I think about it rhe less I am. Not that I think you should have been, your drawings are fabulous (i especially like the simole line drawing of the lady sat down) but because some people will always find the human body and pictures of it as something that should be hidden. Idiots!
Thanks for sharing this post and your artwork with us, Tracey xx #abitofeverything
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Thank you for your kind words. 🙂 xx
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